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In early 2003, I started writing a story that I eventually called November Rain. One of my best friends, Ashley, was not only inspired to make her own contributions (which I happily incorporated into the story), but later wrote her own fic – a story called Avery. Ashley later started writing an alternate version of Avery from a different character’s perspective, but it’s unfinished and has sat in my story archive since sometime in 2005.

About twenty years later, in late March 2025, I sent Ashley a message asking for permission to either adopt that unfinished story or to write my own version of it – permission that was very enthusiastically granted. I started writing my remix the next day. I hadn't actually planned on posting my remix until it was either done or very close to it, but I ended up caving to my own impatience and posted the prologue and the first chapter to Archive Of Our Own and in my Dreamwidth at the end of April 2025.

This is that story, named for the Muse song of the same name.

Summary:
I don’t expect to be forgiven. I don’t expect to be welcomed back. And I definitely don’t expect anyone to forget what I did a decade and a half ago – that I abandoned my family, my bandmates and my career. And nor do I want them to. I just want them to know how sorry I am, and that if I could fix everything I would do it in a heartbeat.

I just hope that it’s not too late.

How are you supposed to tell your family that you could be dying?

(A remix of Avery.)
Rating: MA 15+
Warnings: Naughty language, alcohol use and references, drug references, major character death
Status: In progress
Story started: 25 March 2025
Story last updated: 1 May 2025
Word count: 15,515